I am feeling bad lately, frustrated. The sun is out and the world seems full of promise and fun things to do. I want to GO somewhere, I want to DO something!…But I can’t, I have research and programming work to do, in order to get my Masters and to be seen to be earning the funding money.
I am struggling with the work, not the amount of work, but with the work itself, I just cant seem to get the code working and I just cant seem to be prepared for my weekly meetings with my supervisor and spend every Sunday night and Monday freaking out and worrying and scrambling to get things working, then being very stressed, annoyed and worried when it’s not all working out, then trying to come up with excuses not to attend my meeting and to avoid the work.
It is on one of those occasions that I am sitting here now, after avoiding my meeting for another week, feeling bad and dreading next weeks meeting already… I just want to leave it all behind and enjoy myself, but I know it would be the wrong thing to do….That Spring feeling…who needs it!
